Ramblings of a Pregnant Woman: Second Edition

So I was thinking the other day that I haven't posted anything in quite some time. Why? I dunno nothing interesting is going on or I just didn't have anything to really say. I didn't have any fun pictures to post either. So where shall I start rambling? Hmmm.

As of now I am 20 weeks and 4 days pregnant. I'm finally starting to see my pooch through my already visible pre-pregnant pooch. If that makes any sense good if not it doesn't really matter. Shortly I will be growing out of my clothes I'm sure which is poopy because I am picky about the clothes I wear and I hate shopping. That is probably the worst combination because that means others can't really shop on behalf of me unless I am there to try on the clothes. As my mom can confirm this you can indeed trust that I am a girl who hates shopping of any kind. Odd I know a girl who hates shopping!!!! WOW! But that's me. The only shopping I do like is when I'm with a friend and we're getting stuff for her and not me and the only reason I like it then is because I get to (a) spend time with them and (b) they all look super cute/gorgeous in anything they put on. I'm really good at picking stuff out for other people when I'm shopping just not for me.

Anyway back to pregnancy (see there is in fact a reason why this is posted as ramblings!) Our little bug is getting so strong! Just in the past week he (no we don't know what we're having yet we just always refer to the baby as our little guy in there or he) has gone from feeling like flutters to being a dancing fool. So much so that I'm worried when he's bigger and I have to go potty real bad I think I'll wet my pants if he kicks me in the bladder. I'm not sure if anyone else can feel the kicks yet though. Whenever I have my hand where he's dancing I can't tell if I'm feeling it with my hand or just feeling it inside of me. Does that make sense? I can't wait for Paul to be able to feel the baby. That will be very exciting.

Our ultrasound is on Oct. 6th. So on a week from Tuesday we'll hopefully find out if we're having a boy or a girl. My mom wants a girl cuz that will mean she has 13 grandsons and 13 granddaughters to make them even with each other. Hopefully the little bean isn't too shy and holds still long enough to see. So I'm excited to find out if the baby lets us but I'm super nervous. This will help tell us if everything is going well and if the baby is developing properly. My biggest fear is that something will go or have gone wrong. I don't think it will everything feels fine and normal but how do I know? I've never done this before and making a baby is a big task! But I am super excited to be able to see our baby now that he looks (hopefully) a lot less like a little alien/sea monkey and more like a fully done baby!

On a side note I'm also very scared to raise a baby in the world today. It's a scary thought. If I didn't have the faith and knowledge I have in Heavenly Father and Christ I'm not sure I would want to bring a baby into this world that is continually pounding us with bad things. I mean the news is full of all the awful things that people do to each other. I remember going to high school (it was only almost 3 years ago) and I thought it was hard and I had it relatively easy compared to some. I can only imagine what the world will be like when my kids are that age. I see it everywhere.

Some of the meanest things I've ever heard anyone say is not actually being said but is being written. I think the internet is a wonderful tool that can be used for many good things. Like keeping in touch and finding out useful information. But it is also crawling with awful things. I see comments left on posts, videos, articles and people are down right rude and disgusting. I think they have the mentality that since they are face to face with someone they can say those rude and mean things that they probably would never actually say in person. It's ridiculous. What is happening to respect and kindness and integrity? Lucky for me I am blessed with family and friends who have those things. I would say that I'm probably sheltered compared to some people in the world. It makes me sad that in a world full of amazing things and great privilege people choose to hate and take advantage of others. Any way that's enough sadness for today.

Happier note! It's Friday! Wohoo! Not that it matters except for that means Paul doesn't work tomorrow, oh wait he does until 3p.m. But that's not bad because at least he'll be home in the afternoon and evening unlike during the week when he works till midnight. Well I think I'm about rambled out so I'll say goodbye for now. Hope everyone is doing well.

Maggie

Caring for Your Introvert - The Atlantic (March 2003)

Caring for Your Introvert - The Atlantic (March 2003)

I am definitely an Introvert. lol For sure.

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